I've been going through a lot of changes and trying to take better care of myself. I learned a lot of stuff about music not only just how to make it. Since a month before the lessons went down I had already started trying to process the stuff and work it into my playing. Still working on it, if I guessed how much I improved, it's probably sevenfold or more, but that's just how I feel about it. I've had some dislocated shoulders, concussions and lot's of stress I've been trying to keep to myself. My 2 new birds since a year chat a lot, started drumming, early dark, neighbor trouble, physical therapy and since a month or 2, I started the heavy bag. I'm not social, it holds me back in ways more than just music, I don't want to accidentally make comments that may seem mean. I'm a bit sensitive and sometimes I think others could be the same. IRL I'm the guy that says hi one day to everybody and the next day I don't look at anyone. It's a problem, sometimes I feel like a ghost. Normally I would just stay home on those days but I'm forcing myself out. I'm trying to keep my focus on getting better at music separate, even though I do want to connect more. I've been missing the lessons. I joined when the site started but had a problem that took me out for nearly 2 years. When I started here I noticed I was a bit like "Stan", not that extreme, but I chose to disconnect since I feel close even though not being.
It's weird for me in a lot of ways.
I'm probably going to delete this in a day but these are some things
There's also other stuff I worry about that I feel I need to be ready for but have no idea what it is
i got lots of pain
It's weird for me in a lot of ways.
I'm probably going to delete this in a day but these are some things
There's also other stuff I worry about that I feel I need to be ready for but have no idea what it is
i got lots of pain
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