I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time but you gotta also realize that life is always a series of roller coaster emotions, we rotate through hot and cold, but always know that any dark feelings are only temporary. I loath using quotes for psychotherapeutic purposes but by reading your post I believe this might apply.
“If you look for the light, you can often find it. But if you look for the dark, that is all you will ever see”
Not gonna lie man, sometimes shit just sucks and we feel depressed and lonely, but again, this will all pass in time. I would concur with others here that the assistance you’re looking for is not to be found on a guitar forum or any online platform. Your first step in my opinion should be to seek out a psychologist (not a psychiatrist) or family counselor to see if having someone to talk to about your feelings might help. From your post I get the impression that you need to vent about some things going on in your life and that’s perfectly natural and there is absolutely no shame in seeking out the help of a licensed professional. Until you do that, just try to take it easy my friend. If music is playing a part in your stress, then give it a break, musics not going anywhere!
To help give my words some weight, I’ll tell you this man. I too have been robbed of all my guitars and possessions not once, but 4 times. I had very fuckin dark times for many years living in the streets and trying to escape all my dark shit with hard drugs, that of course made shit worse.I’ve dealt with the shittiest people on this planet and I can tell you that I still believe people are majority on the good side, and that’s hard to grasp enough to be able to open up anything to anyone I know, but that’s what you gotta do. Don’t try to escape your reality by distractions or drugs and don’t try to bottle everything up man. Also remember that online interactions should never influence your perspective on interacting with people IRL, people just suck online a lot and that’s why the internet can be a dangerous world to spend time in. In real life people suck a lot too, but ya know what? Fuck em, you don’t need them. You can’t let the shit from other people drip on to you.If someone calls you a douchebag, fuck them too, they’re just wrong so if they’re wrong then why carry with you that anger and resentful dark energy?
my friend, I will also say in all honesty that you are putting far too much weight into smiles and likes on here. That shit means absolutely nothing, its all a system that copies the modern social media format. The format is to give you that little dopamine rush when you get a like, then you want more and more. Without going deep into the neurochemistry of it, I’ll tell you it’s simply an addiction. This is a common problem today and you need to take a step back and place more emphasis in your real world. Focus on school, work, relationships etc. I’m assuming your probably a teenager so focus on school! Take it from me, a paragon of wasted potential who fucked it all up.
Sorry for the wall of text, brevity has never been my strong suit haha but in summary:
-Try to avoid placing any importance on social media or Internet forums
-seek out a psychologist if you need someone to talk to
-avoid drugs/alcohol and find healthy coping mechanisms
-try to understand that there are shitty people everywhere, but there are always also good people and they far outnumber the bad
-just be easy on yourself man
These emotions will pass, this darkness will pass. All things heal in time, ya gotta put the past in the rear view and just find that light bro, there’s always a silver lining, even often in the shittiest fuckin circumstances. Please feel free to hit me up if you need someone to talk to man, we are all here for you and know you’re never alone!
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