So what im gonna say is not the most fun but I believe in sharing honestly. This year has been the worst of my life. I have lost... a lot. And by that I mean all the forms of loss. The heartbreaking ones, the permanant ones, the ones caused by the world.... you get the point. They all happened one after the other and i did not catch a break. It all happened despite my best efforts and I cant close my eyes without reliving the moments.
Now I am not looking for sympathy, I do what I must and I do it well, but its important to give context to see where I am coming from. And because even in the darkest moments, there is light to be found.
I took control of my life and realized that the one constant in my life has been music. It wasnt perfect but my musical journey has always taken me exactly where I was meant to be. always. We could dive into a more spiritual aspect to this conversation but I will leave that for another day. I have a goal. I have a plan and i stick to it. I know who I want to be. What I want to become. So I work for it. Everyday. Sometimes its a very small contribution, sometimes its bigger but the point is that it adds up to get closer to the goal because there are so many steps. I am working on an EP of my own and im taking care of 85% of the work and that requires a lot of discipline and will and planning etc...
So in conclusion, what keeps me motivated? My one fire. Because nobody is gonna come at me and give me what i want on a silver platter. I must earn it and at the very least, I will give it my best shot. So yeah I take life as it is, not as I want it to be. One day at a time and always trying my best to go to sleep as the best version of myself